Getting rooted in an unsettled world

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Hello off-white readers!

Did you know that foods can helps us balance out the other energies of our lives. Of course you did, you are all savvy, aware people.  But in case any of you forgot (like I do), read ahead.

I love the Traditional Chinese Medicine model of the 5 elements to look at how lifestyle creates balance.  We have the following elements to play with in designing our personal wellness plan (PS: this is by no means a comprehensive view of the 5 elements, so seek out more info if you are so inclined):

Water – flow, dreams, winter, sleep, our “big dream” in life, fears, kidneys
Wood – our “get up and go”, spring, upward bound,  liver, ‘sergent’-like behaviors, awakening
Fire – charisma, social connections, inspiration, passion, summer, heart, anger
Earth – connection to earth, mother energy, compassion, “do I have what it takes”, getting grounded, warm, stomach/spleen/pancreas
Metal – completion, inward focus, constriction, large intestine and lungs

When I am feeling really out of balance, it is usually my liver that is whacked out.  Not really my “physical” liver, but the energy of the liver.   I often laugh at my “angry liver chi” because it makes me a tyrant that can’t stop working.  The liver, when imbalanced, is like the slave-driving boss who has no compassion or heart and works itself and others into burn out……..yep, that would explain me.  It’s also a very controlling (I want my way) kind of energy.  Every time I have any kind of energy/Eastern -thought minded work done on me its always about balancing my liver.  that dang little element very easily works its way into a stress-induced kunundrm in my life. 

The remedies: Yoga, nature and grounding foods, laughing, and letting things go (which means they may all fall apart around me and I have to just let it happen).  I need something to unwind the poor sergent so he can rest up, feel connected, be inspired, and ready to bring a spring like energy to the next day.

Root vegetable and slightly sweet foods are one way to augment the Earth element, which gets starved when the Liver is on a tyraid (Sp?).  With our world being what it is, I would imagine many of us are experiencing fear and stress.

See below for a recipe for a moroccon inspired root veggie dish, that when consumed in a loving way ina peaceful environment, might just do the trick!  Enjoy:

tagine root vegetables

If you don’t have a tagine, you can simply cook this in a covered pyrex dish.
Pre-set overn to 350 if using a glass dish, or 375 for ceramic/metal

1 Butternut squash, sliced into 1″ thick discs at the long end, adn 2″ cubes at the round end
1 sweet potato, sliced into 1″ discs
1/4 cup water

2 sweet onions, chopped
1/2 cup dried raisins/cherries or a mix of both
1/2 cup pistacios and almonds, mixed and finely chopped
2 tsp cinnamon
1 tsp cloves
1 tbsp EVOO
a few pats of butter, melted or warmed (for topping the squash at serving)
salt, to taste

Once the oven is pre-heated and the squash is chopped, place the squash in the baking dish or tagine with the water on the bottom.  Make sure the dish is covered.  Cook for 40-50 minutes, or until the squashes are slightly soft but not mushy.  You may peel the discs before serving (easier than peeling raw).

Meanwhile, in a large, non-reactive skillet, cook the following:
sautee the onions with the oil and salt for 3-5 minutes
add the finely chopped nuts and cook on med heat for 1-2 minutes, stirring regularly
add the raisins and spices, cooking for another 3-4 minutes, stirring the mixture well.  Keep warm until serving.

When the squash is done, place a few discs on each person’s plate.  Drizzle with 1 tsp warm butter each disc and top with the onion/dried fruit/nut mixture.  DELISH!!!!

Enjoy and may peace find us all, in our bodies and in our minds!

grateful

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Today there is much to be grateful for.  I’m so grateful for my job, my family, my health, friends….you get the idea.

But here’s a radical thought: I’m also really grateful for all the food struggles  that I have had and continue to have.  For those who think that I must be ‘in the clear’ when it comes to sugar obsession or that I can always, without fail, walk past a plate of warm oatmeal cookies without going into major fantasy mode (and eating some of that fantasy), please remember that I am human.  And that I started this blog on behalf of a larger than life addiction to sugar.  There is no getting around it:  In order to surrender to the white stuff, and hence leave it behind ,I must first be grateful for its existence.

I was in a Carolyn Myss workshop where we were looking at our ‘issues’ and why we had them.  We focused on a few resentments we held, a few stuck points.  At the end of this 2.5 day workshop she looked at all of us and said:

“I want you to recall the most painful thing that has ever happened to you.  And now I want you to thank that thing because it was the BEST thing that ever happened to you”……YOWZA, talk about having to do some humbling personal work.

So for me, sugar addiction is the worst/best thing that has happened to me .  It has brought me to my knees and leveled me on more than one occasion.  It has also awakened in me a passion and a gift for helping others that I never saw coming.  Who knew that I’d ever want to be on TV…..who knew that I’d actually be able to help people with this messed up love of cookies and donuts.  WHO KNEW….

 

So tonight I feel really grateful and part of off-white eating has nothing to do with food at all, and has everything to do with how much I feel nourished on a deeper, soul level.  I’ve only been able to touch that with my food issues and the community I’ve found here on this blog and in my life.

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full but starving

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Today I had an interesting conversation with a client that brought be back to a real, hard truth.  The underlying reason that I am committed to living within the off-white program is not just because of all the nutritional benefits of healthy food.  It’s not because it keeps me skinny or guarantees me more of a chance at health as an older woman.

No, the real reason is because of the deep emotional power that food, namely refined carbs, have on me when I let them.  In short, when I’m diving into the carbs I end up full but starving.  My starving I mean emotionally.

I used to do a lot of writing about why I was so obsessed with sugar.  What was it with that crazy substance?  As i wrote, the words glared back at me.  I was letting sweets ‘romance’ me the way I was wanting to be ‘romanced’ by life.  Food was a friend, an entertainment, a yummy distraction, an excuse, a place to feel safe and forget about the world.

When I eat compulsively or binge out on sweets, I’m full but starving for something more than food can give me, yet it is seductive.  It distracts me from reality.  It creates a familiar pattern (albeit really uncomfortable) of stress relieve a la food.  For so many people I know and work with, they too realize that they are being courted by food and its a false love that leads nowhere good.

PLUS….plus……you do get physically addicted to the stuff.  Then you’ve really got a kunundrum – emotional and physical desires.  Its like dating the bad boy who makes you feel sooooo good when you are with him, but so crummy when you are alone.  So you turn a blind eye to the truth and dive back in.  I am one of those people who simply can’t have “just one”!  Its a landslide waiting to happen, especially when my guard is down and my fear is up.

If that rings true for you, I want you to know that you are not alone.  And don’t think for one second that there is something wrong with you because we all have coping mechanisms.  Some are just more healthy/tolerable than others. Most of us have some shade of using food for ways other than nourishment.  Its still something I struggle with.  When I fight with Matt the only thing I really want to do is eat oatmeal cookies, drink hot cocoa, and sit on my couch.  And believe me…. been there, done THAT.  I just come to believe that it’s part of the karma I’m working out on this earth, and without it, this website and personal passion would have never been born!

I’m grateful for my client today who brought it back down to reality and reminded me of my truth.  

Happy off white eating,

Rebecca

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but what do I eat??

Hey all,

a lot of people ask me what I eat when cleansing.  I ask myself the SAME question, believe me.

Happily, cleansing is OVER, but I made some foolish choices to eat a few too many ‘non clease’ frlendly foods last night.  How could I resist – friends gathering for a potluck.  It was all amazing, but the tummy ain’t so happy.  Oh well, it was worth every bite! – Just goes to show me how much my body acclimates to cleanse foods.

SO, if you want to see some visual of cleanse friendly groceries, check this out:

 

If you want to see what is in store for me next, her is my goal:

DAILY:

3 veggies/day at least 1 dark green
2-3 fruits, no bananas, grapes, cherries, pineapple (unless special occasions) – mostly apples of all varieties, citrus, berries, mango, kiwi
Protein at every meal: beans, meats except pork (red meat 2x/month MAX), and lots of fish/eggs; also rice protein drinks when desired/needed

FATS: everything healthy except butter because I just don’t digest it well, especially in large doses….and who really needs butter in large doses

3-4x/week: GRAINS
quinoa or rice or sprouted grain/spelt grains. NO BREADS, MUFFINS, BAKED GOODS, as they are too refiend.  

1x/week:

Wasa bread, only if its the wheat-free variety
Goat cheese
high quality yogurt (plain)
Rice milk hot chocolate 

What I am NOT doing:

dairy, HFCS, refined sugars or items with sugars in the first 5 ingredients, nuts (except when they are a condiment or mixed in at low volumes), wheat.    If I can do that for the long term, I’m GOLDEN!!

I’d also like to emphasize no eating past 8pm and I really want to abstain from chocolate because it really just makes me kind of nutty – even the good stuff.

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thanks readers, for carrying me through

Hey all,

no video this morning because, well…..I look like something the cat dragged in, and its just too early to put that on youtube 🙂

I just want to deeply thank all who read this blog and especially those who make a comment, drop me a line, or stop me in the hall at work to talk about what they read/watched the night before.

In short, readers YOU ROCK!!!

There are many times in my life these days where I feel alone – with Matt being gone and some of the rapid changes in the world and economy, It just makes me feel like an island.  Not to mention how it can feel to go to a bar and order tea while your friends are ordering burgers and fries (Hello, the only thing more torturous was if that burger came with a brownie a la mode…).  It can be hard to be the high maintenance eater, and it can REALLY be hard to be the sugar binge eater who wants to devour a mountain of oatmeal cookinges because she is stressed.

So thank goodness I have you all, and I just love hearing about your experiences, ideas, challenges, etc around this crazy little thing called food.

One of my teachers once said that America is an example of what happens when you combine unlimited choices with free will.  Well said, I believe.  It’s hard to stay in the off-white realm, both in physical choices and in emotional wellbeing, when there are so many reasons and opportunities to fall off the wagon.

So here I am today nearing the end of my 2 week cleanse.  It almost feels normal now.  Last night I grilled up some Salmon with cumin and curry and stir-fried onions to go with it.  Put that wit ha side of sweet potatoe and 1/2 grapefruit for dessert – DE-LISH!!

And really, it felt pretty good to come home from my night with friends having just had tea, since I wasn’ hungry anyway and the burgers/fries would have been mindless eating.  Nothing tastes better than making good choices that leave me feeling proud and having good memories.

Hugs to you all and happy Friday,

Rebecca

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Cleanse-fest and frugal frittata (recipe)

Hi all,

Cleansing is going okay, especially with friends to snowshoe with today (thanks guys!), which helps take the mind off all the foods I can’t have.  I’ve noticed a little loneliness creeping in because its been 1 week since I’ve seen Matt.  Often when lonely I want to turn to food.  It’s hard when cleansing because food does not have the allure (which is good), so I have to look more and feel more of my feelings.  Tonight I cooked a warm cup of rice milk to give me a comfort while watching “Mystery Diagnosis” on TLC.  Total comfort evening, but better than what it has been in the past (Sugar binge).

I craved pizza like crazy after the snow, and there really is not anything like pizza that is cleanse friendly, so I sucked it up and had arugula salad w/tomatoes and vinaigrette  and some of the soup I made with A. on Friday.

Since I didn’t blog all weekend, here are 3 videos from cleanse-fest baking night on Friday with A.  We made the most rockin’ dessert falafels, so you have to watch that video at least!!!


(soups and cleanse friendly cooking) 


(falafel video ) 


(Juicing) 


(Juicing #2 – the end product) 

After juicing we had tons of pulp .  Me being a frugal gal, and always thinking of ways to save money and eat well, there was no way I was going to let all that great organic by-product go to waste!  So I made some frugal frittata – here is the recipe:

5 organic eggs
about 1.5 cups of veggie juice pulp (W/green apples in my case)
1/2 yellow onion
2 tsp cumin
1 tomato, chopped
1 tsp sea salt

Sautee the onion with salt and cumin.  Add the 5 eggs and pulp to the skillet and cook on low/med for 4 minutes, until it is almost like an egg scramble.  Don’t over mix.  Next, put the skillet in the oven on ‘broil’ for 4 minutes to brown the eggs.  Top with chopped tomato and enjoy!! 

Okay, I have officially completed 1 week of cleansing.  Other than the grains in the pulp-flax muffins I made this weekend (about 1.5 cups of gluten free whole grain cereal adn ezekiel sprouted grain cereal instead of flour), I won’t have grains again until next Sunday.  I don’t miss them, especially if I can have sweet potatoes, rice milk (in limited quantities), and a few fruits.

See you soon!

Rebecca

Detox day #4: The Incredible, Edible Egg

 

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God, I love eggs……and my how I missed them during my 3-days of vegan detox.  Now I can have them back and I’m so grateful.

Why I love eggs:

  • Egg white are the most perfect protein to which all proteins are measured
  • In just 70 calories, you can have a few grams of healthy fats, B vitamins, selenium, and 7g of pure protein – what a deal!!
  • They are an inexpensive source of protein
  • They are easy to cook and you can take hard boiled eggs on the go
  • Coloring easter eggs is fun….oh wait, that has nothing to do with eating, but its still a reason I love ’em

Check out these off white detox truths revealed here as I recount day 4:

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another perspective on Detox

Hi all, a gal named Beth has a blog and is doing a detox too.  I checked it out – slightlty different than mine, but may inspire those who don’t what exactly what I am doing:

her blog is www.confessionsofafoodie.com.

For those who want more details about MY detox guidelines, check this out:

Days 1-3:
What’s in:  green veggies 2x/day, daily consumption of beats (at least 4x/week overe the next two weeks), beans (organic), any other veggie, any herbs/spices that are natural (no chemical laden mixes), green apples, pomegranate, lemon/lime, grapefruit, berries, rice protein or hemp protein ( I prefer rice), avocados, sweet potatoes/turnips/parsnips, a small amount of rice milk, extra virgin olive oil, high oleic safflower oil, coconut oil (the good kind), flax, garbanzo beans/hummus

What’s out: any flours or grains, any animal proteins/dairy, fruits other than what is listed, potatoes, corn chocolate of any kind, nuts, soy products, caffeine, sugar

Why: the first three days really give the body a chance to eat only what is VERY easy to digest.  One should have a decent working colon when beginning a cleanse, so you can use the increased fiber/simple foods to keep with the body flushing.  However, its not uncommon to be consitpated at first too

Days 3-14:  Adding in organic eggs and fish, as well as 2-3 servings of rice or quinoa after day 7.  My body doesn’t do grains well, so I try to avoid as much as possible

In addition, I take these supplements:

Omega 3: Nordic Naturals brand
250 mg Magnesium
2-3,000 IU Vitamin D
A liver detox complex w/ turmeric, nettles, milk thistle
a probiotic: Nature’s Way brand
a TON of water – like 2x/ what I normally drink
2-3 oz/day of a green juice that I make, or I purchase or my friend A. makes for me! 

herbal tea, like Good Earth and Peppermint – my two favs!

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its beginning to look a lot like detox

check out day two of detox!

I am winding down my day with a hot shower and the use of a fabulous coconut lotion my friend S. picked up for me from Austrailia.  Detox makes me tired, so I’m going to study until 9pm, talk with Matt on Skype until 9:30 and hit the hay.  Funny, I didn’t think my body was THAT toxic, being as I just did this process in November.  Must have been all that time with family – I’m purging the foods and the family stress 🙂

At the end of this week I’m treating myself to a haircut at the Aveda Institute in Portland.  If I can’t eat out, at least I can have great hair!  They have great haircuts, products and service, and its easy on the pocketbook.

Rebecca